I've known it for a while, but I've been denying it. When you think something, you can always push it away, but when someone else tells you it, it opens your eyes to the reality of it all. One of my best friends told me flat out and I'm grateful for her caring for me and having the guts to tell me. I've become too emotionally attached to Stuart and this past weekend affirms that. I let my emotions take control when my head needs to be in the game.
So the decision is that we're not going to talk for the next 2 weeks, and maybe more. I'm going to spend that time focusing on everything that is on my plate. I need to get settled into my apartment and make friends. When he gets here, we can get together as friends and spend time with others. Then we can see where things go from there. By doing this, he will also be able to focus on moving, settling, and making friends.
I thought about the best way to tell Stuart and typed it all up. Now I'm just waiting for him to get online so I can lay it out to him. I really hope that he is supportive in this decision and sees the value in it. If he doesn't like it and doesn't want to go with it, then that really sucks and it might be the end. The way I see it, if he doesn't want to test our relationship wants to let it go downhill like I think it is headed if we keep going the way we are, the it's not worth it.
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